Grammatical/Spelling Mistakes and YOU: Just Forget About It, Please.

I don't understand why I am expected to be perfect. I never said I was perfect. Everyone says, or maybe just some, they say "HA! Right there! Lack of perfection!" And I say back, huh? What? And then some... "Some what?" Nothing. Stop fixating on typos, my brain works differently in every way. Usually it does mean lack of education. Usually. Language is all fucked in my brain to some degree, or to a large degree, that's why I said somewhere on the internet, "language barrier." I was a star student at spelling, when I was in school. I was always in the top spelling groups, and spelling was easy for me. Well, now, there is a kerfluffel in the brain, okay. That's all. There are still words that aren't as easy to spell for me as you might think. "Heroine, heroin." Shut up. I have never done heroin, and there was this situation when I was younger... Well, I am the heroine who does drugs, on a subconscious level. I have never done heroin. The difference between those two words isn't easy for me to remember anyway. So... Now, the assignment given ends at constant vigilance, with witches who don't like my Christian worldview, and they do as the see fit here. What terms are WE on? So-so, I guess. Not sure. For the love of God, don't lie about what kind of terms we are on. Sometimes I do know and don't care. I don't care. I only care about a perfect score.

Fish Out of Water Psychology: The Aftermath

It presents a conundrum when the training method used by the other side is Fish Out of Water Psychology. Well, first, you have to survive the experience. Always remember, that was the most excruciatingly strenuous challenge of all time. With the pain-purge-redemption process, I purged my psyche of the "wimp" belief that was presented to me and processed and internalized with the Social Predicament. I survived it, wrote about it artistically on Facebook. And then I was done. The repression process? Clean. Keep in mind, with back to back memory repression, that is strenuous on the psyche (so if you're doing something and the memory gets repressed, stop. It's excruciatingly strenuous on the psyche, an issue that effects my brain and functioning). Then what happens? Well, I keep it to myself for awhile. I told Jason at one point a long time later, thinking I could confide in him. WRONG. Wrong, wrong, wrong. That was an issue he was not capable of handling. First, he wants to say, how horrible. And I say no. Why? There was a marked difference after they finished. The wimp belief was turned into a belief in superior strength of self. Then what? Despite what random losers might think... I don't care. That's not the issue, one of them is the issue of Jason. You either let him apply rape sensitivity to the situation, or well, you lose him as a friend. That was the friendship deal breaker there. I didn't want to go through Fish Out of Water Psychology, either. It purged me of the wimp belief, and there is still a wimp complex though. At one point, "But why wasn't the intensity enough already?" NOPE. Not with a firmly held childhood belief planted in my psyche at age nine. Nope. It took... THAT much. Up until Fish Out of Water Psychology, then the wimp belief changed into the strong belief. "Well, I can't do that to myself Rachel. That causes me to disrespect you and women altogether, if I can't hold onto a belief like that was traumatizing, you were horrified, you poor little thing." And then... Well, forget Shinedown. As I have been saying, that's a distasteful joke. That's a distasteful joke, in poor taste, to the people around me who care. I thought the Shinedown joke was funny though, but I have a sick sense of humor now and wow what a horrible predicament for everyone else to think about. Anyway, what else happens after Fish Out of Water Psychology? My mom starts groping me. "But it's over now." Yes, dear. For your information, that's not a made up story (Fish Out of Water Psychology), I didn't mean you could blatantly disrespect me with your hands either. I don't like touching you. Okay? OKAY?! I even bother to give you a hug every night despite the circumstances because there is something sad about that, but God, if you get the wrong idea... Then fuck you, Bev. What else happens after you have experienced Fish Out of Water Psychology? The other thing that happens is Jason gets so fucking pissed off thinking about the situation, it fills him with murderous rage, armed with a black magic weapon. And it requires hatred to complete the spell, so as we say here, we point to Jason and yell "HATE!" And me and my friends laugh, God, oh MY God, like Oh my God, I can't believe Jason doesn't get that my spirit guides are everything to me. What part of that did you not get? You are just Mannequin A. Yeah, I liked you at one point, but I was young. So, to sum up, after you survive Fish Out of Water Psychology, you have to survive the anger and hatred of others who think you lie. And outsiders run in, point at you, "HAHA! You're an evil bitch!" But I know better. And that's what keeps me going. My sky high self-esteem. [Abrupt Ending]

Donald Trump: Whiny, Greedy, and With a Preference for Asinine Situations

Geez, what a shitshow. That guy is never satisfied. Stop draining the fuck out of my chakras, please. Whatever spell THAT is, achieves a chakra drain that leaves me depresssed, low energy, and lying motionless on the bed unable to do anything at all. That's just how Trump likes it, I guess. That guy is never satisfied no matter what. Why does he insist on additional spells? The desired effect, I must say should probably already be considered acheived. Why more? Why dumb non-functional lying on the bed spells? God only knows. After a battle, they laid off. "But he paid us so much money!" Geez, Donald. For the love of God, quit being such a fucking whiner.

"Shinedown": The Band that Shines a Spotlight on a Nobody with Mental Health Problems

What a bunch of retarded sociopaths! And by the way, I am reaching for a spirit word here. There is a word that could be translated as "retarded sociopath," it just means the epitome of piece of shit, in context. While I was unsuspectingly posting on line and experiencing emotional peril and mental breakdown risk, talking to Jason about suicide at the time and commiserating... Simultaneously, The band Shinedown decided to dedicate a whole album called "ATTENTION ATTENTION" to drive an unsuspecting civilian, me no doubt, insane or to suicide, whichever. That's what it would have seemed like at the time, geez. Luckily, I don't fucking listen to fucking Shinedown. I was living in my own little world, with my own "private life." There is a such thing as delusions of reference, you know. Do you know what those are? I would think so. You can fill in the dots from there, and check out the most "brilliant" album of all time. Honestly, I kind of want to avert my eyes from the stupidity of this album, but this is a well-known band who produced an album for everyone in the world. Do other people support this album and this sentiment? God only knows, maybe they think it's about them instead, given the lyrically castrophes presented in the album. Not only that, as I found out and dropped a black magic bomb, or a couple of them, the band decided to try to kill me or do something weird to my aura or something with black magic. On Thanksgiving, of all days. Lucky for me, I was not eating Thanksgiving dinner with family at all on Thanksgiving due to my parents not wanting me over without taking meds. I haven't heard how the roast beef was this year, as a side note. (Normally it's turkey) Causing heart palpitations in one thing, I laughed it off or whatever with the witches who opted out and were handed cash. And shrugged it off and things are fine. What a weird thing to do, Shinedown. Bullying doesn't earn my respect. Why don't you shoot up somewhere instead of you want "that" kind of respect... Kidding. Don't take that seriously, random readers. Bullies! And that is all.

An Introduction to Rachel's Mysticism Adventure

Let's talk about mysticism stuff. It's a thought that occurred to me, at what point did I start doing work on the ego? It was obvious in 2014, that's when it was blatantly obvious. There was an altered state before the spirit guides entered the picture, and at that point it was obvious, this is not a mental illness, it's enlightenment work. And that's one thing. The first mysticism state in 2006, which was lovely in itself, served as a beautiful introduction. What work was done? We introduced global warming, an incest situation which served as an exercise in being open-minded, a jolting realization, this was the part that was jolting, hey, something's up in your life Rachel, and it's important, mixed with the reason. There was the classic erotomania, paranoid (barely but no one asked questions) element, and yes the grandiosity of the classic Jesus was me delusion. Mixed with Kundalini which presented the idea of strange ass deluded and compromised reasoning. Kaching! All in a bucket, I'd say. It was a grandiose romp that seemed unearned, in essence. Why was Rachel so special? That's why I say, unearned. As you move right along... past the stuff that happened subsequently... The people seemed strawmanny and hokey. No one was the epitome of anything though, even at the beginning. The thing I wanted to point out, I stated it somewhere and I restate, you would never point to someone and label them the epitome of anything. Good or bad. No one is horrible, and no one is perfect either. Until now, of course, "Well Jesus was perfect" and you say that and call it a day. Perfect isn't a real thing anyway, what does perfect look like? "Well if you were perfect, you would act exactly like this and no other way..." What is a sin? Something that annoys God, and thus creates distance. We can say, Jesus never annoyed God, and call it a day there too. You know, "sin" isn't as constant as Christians seem to think, is my understanding of the situation. Christians are always like, wow I just sin and sin... I can't stop sinning... Not everything is a sin you might think. God made simple blanket statements in the Bible. We can remember Tupac, and others maybe, and understand that God understands you. Does every lie, drug you've tried, sexual thought (geez I hope not), whatever else, piss off God? It depends. You would need to assess the situation and understand that in general, when it comes to some people who think that we are just plain old "sinners," God cuts you a little bit more slack than you might be thinking. There's that kind of Christian, and the Christian who goes... Well Jesus covered me. And you wonder... What did Jesus say again? Well, somewhere it says this, and in another place, gnashing of teeth. Well, gnashing of teeth means... Your jaw is moving a litte, there is some sort of gnashing of teeth at some point in existence or life. And that's that. Hey, I went off on a tangent in this post. I hope you enjoyed!

Jason Gives Emily Her "Dream"

The beginning of this story starts about a year ago. One thing that happened around this time, Jason mentioned to Emily that Rachel checks the Roger Hannibal account everytime she is unfriended. This was NOT true. Actually, I assumed Jason wouldn't unfriend me again. So this time, they laughed about how the reaction to another unfriending would be immediate. And unfriended me again, Emily thought she would get a good laugh and ended up getting hurt instead. No, the reaction was not immediate, Subbie decided to check several days later and saw that Roger Hannibal was no longer on her friends list. You know, I wouldn't normally care if Jason was technically my "friend on Facebook," but I got pissed at the diss because the first time this happened, my aura got shattered (what a weird thing to have happen, I know), and I ended up attempting suicide, since I was on the streets. And yes, Rachel was on a Death Plane (spiritual plane) when making the video saying Jason will see her face in his nightmares, by the way. I was close to death. Anyway... Instead of a good cheap laugh Emily was expecting, they got a blog that stayed up one day and then came down, pointing out that Ethan didn't regret committing suicide, and Jason was considered a psychopath by my guides. I took it down right away, went into turmoil for a second, and spiritually attacked Jason and Emily simply by thinking about projecting bad energy. That was all I did to spiritually attack them. Of course, for the let down, Emily wanted revenge. Jason told her about something you can do to people for revenge that is supernatural (a warning sign due to the bad karma you will receive from this situation, both of them), and Emily threw a fit wanted to get her way and said this was her "dream." This is the part I do not understand. What is going through both their minds, but Jason's in particular, when he agrees to this situation. I simply cannot fathom what would bring you to do this to your friend, and neither can the spirit world. This also destroyed what was left of Jason's semi-good reputation on the other side. The good news is, my guides did something to prevent it from having the desired effect on me, and the world remained at peace for the time being in my world, though I was grappling with serious depression anyway at the time due to uncertainty about the mission and whether it was real or not, despite the mindflip, due to the downward spiral in my world. Well, Jason was upset alright about doing this to Rachel, I will tell you that, I don't know exactly what he was thinking but I do know that giving Emily her dream destroyed what was left of Jason (and in turn Emily's) life. Jason got a horrific demon. I don't understand why I didn't suspect this earlier, something was wrong with Jason. My guides said, doing this, despite costing the Farnworth family more than a month's paycheck out of Jason's salary, caused Jason to stop caring about others and be full of hate toward everyone. He got a demon, lost all his friends due to rudeness, wrote to Rachel when she was contemplating suicide and ended up talking her into it, and much much more. It destroyed everything. Jason also got some misconceptions about Rachel, as the demon convinced Jason that Rachel was lying about attempting suicide at all (or at least several of the times) and Jason was mad at Rachel. It defies reason and logic. And after recent events this year, as Jason continuously does black magic and hires others to do black magic, he gets pissed because every single thing he does is unsuccessful. He's trying to get a rise out of Rachel, see. He wants to see fear, screaming, and panic. And I am stellar about remaining calm through it all, as my guides have spent a lot of time training me. Now, after hiring witches to force Rachel to kill herself was unsuccessful (remember, Jason has a demon), it comes out that Rachel was innocent on all charges, she didn't lie about anything at all. We are also in the same boat again as Rachel was with with Hugh, as Jason has a demon and no matter what Rachel says or does, Jason hates her unconditionally. Nowadays, Jason sits in his room day after day and does black magic against Rachel. He remembers what Rachel said about Jason and Rachel's relationship on the other side. Jason does all sorts of degrading things to Rachel and Jason and Rachel both love it, is what I was told. One of the goals of living this lifetime is to end this relationship between Jason and Rachel on the other side, as it hinders Rachel's spiritual growth, and self-respect is a value spirits need. So, Jason casts love spells that have been dwindling in efficacy due to Rachel's growing hatred of Jason. He does things and Jason likes pretending that Rachel loves it too, though he is probably kidding and knows Rachel hates it, he's egged on by the malicious demon inside him. I personally interpret the situation as such, Jason is trying to force Rachel into mental breakdown. On a positive note, this ended up being massively harder than Jason originally thought (understatement). However, despite Rachel clearly being the good guy here, and she is doing God's work... I don't know what Jason is thinking, if he is in denial, or if he just doesn't care which is possible too. Everyone is unhappy with Jason, including Emily as she has to put up with her husband continuously doing love/sex spells on another woman, despite being "so so so moral" and not actually cheating. No one wins in this situation. And Rachel may be suffering on a death plane, as of yesterday. What happens now? DUN DUN DUN... DUN...

Ye ole' Abortion Topic (Let's Stop Saying Ye)

So we can conclude from these recent events that God wants abortion to be legal. That's what I concluded. It's the best of both worlds outcome as we understand that the abortions that have already happened aren't some horrible tragedy that God is angry about, and women should be able to have access to abortion within reason. Actually, I personally think, despite my own actions, abortion should be limited to first term only and you should watch your fucking period if you miss one, Rachel Zuhl. That happened the first time and I said hey, mindflip's whack! This has been a required personal exercise in reassessing beliefs and opinions on abortion from an adult perspective, not blindly following what I was taught. One thing my guides pointed out to me, the baby did suffer the first time during the second term abortion in a way that would upset me. Of course, we did parent the baby beforehand, instilling into him our value of toughness, and he knew he was going to a better place too. Most unborn babies probably don't know that. Also, I'm thinking back to my childhood stance on the issue of parental notification of abortions, and thinking what the fuck. I used to be opposed to that, however I wasn't highly opinionated either way. Now I think there must be someone else you can talk to if you feel scared of your parents in that way. You should probably assume the parents are the good guys here. That is all. EDIT: Exception for health concerns for both baby or mother, including birth defects. That's what Rachel Zuhl and friends think.