Grammatical/Spelling Mistakes and YOU: Just Forget About It, Please.

I don't understand why I am expected to be perfect. I never said I was perfect. Everyone says, or maybe just some, they say "HA! Right there! Lack of perfection!" And I say back, huh? What? And then some... "Some what?" Nothing. Stop fixating on typos, my brain works differently in every way. Usually it does mean lack of education. Usually. Language is all fucked in my brain to some degree, or to a large degree, that's why I said somewhere on the internet, "language barrier." I was a star student at spelling, when I was in school. I was always in the top spelling groups, and spelling was easy for me. Well, now, there is a kerfluffel in the brain, okay. That's all. There are still words that aren't as easy to spell for me as you might think. "Heroine, heroin." Shut up. I have never done heroin, and there was this situation when I was younger... Well, I am the heroine who does drugs, on a subconscious level. I have never done heroin. The difference between those two words isn't easy for me to remember anyway. So... Now, the assignment given ends at constant vigilance, with witches who don't like my Christian worldview, and they do as the see fit here. What terms are WE on? So-so, I guess. Not sure. For the love of God, don't lie about what kind of terms we are on. Sometimes I do know and don't care. I don't care. I only care about a perfect score.

Fish Out of Water Psychology: The Aftermath

It presents a conundrum when the training method used by the other side is Fish Out of Water Psychology. Well, first, you have to survive the experience. Always remember, that was the most excruciatingly strenuous challenge of all time. With the pain-purge-redemption process, I purged my psyche of the "wimp" belief that was presented to me and processed and internalized with the Social Predicament. I survived it, wrote about it artistically on Facebook. And then I was done. The repression process? Clean. Keep in mind, with back to back memory repression, that is strenuous on the psyche (so if you're doing something and the memory gets repressed, stop. It's excruciatingly strenuous on the psyche, an issue that effects my brain and functioning). Then what happens? Well, I keep it to myself for awhile. I told Jason at one point a long time later, thinking I could confide in him. WRONG. Wrong, wrong, wrong. That was an issue he was not capable of handling. First, he wants to say, how horrible. And I say no. Why? There was a marked difference after they finished. The wimp belief was turned into a belief in superior strength of self. Then what? Despite what random losers might think... I don't care. That's not the issue, one of them is the issue of Jason. You either let him apply rape sensitivity to the situation, or well, you lose him as a friend. That was the friendship deal breaker there. I didn't want to go through Fish Out of Water Psychology, either. It purged me of the wimp belief, and there is still a wimp complex though. At one point, "But why wasn't the intensity enough already?" NOPE. Not with a firmly held childhood belief planted in my psyche at age nine. Nope. It took... THAT much. Up until Fish Out of Water Psychology, then the wimp belief changed into the strong belief. "Well, I can't do that to myself Rachel. That causes me to disrespect you and women altogether, if I can't hold onto a belief like that was traumatizing, you were horrified, you poor little thing." And then... Well, forget Shinedown. As I have been saying, that's a distasteful joke. That's a distasteful joke, in poor taste, to the people around me who care. I thought the Shinedown joke was funny though, but I have a sick sense of humor now and wow what a horrible predicament for everyone else to think about. Anyway, what else happens after Fish Out of Water Psychology? My mom starts groping me. "But it's over now." Yes, dear. For your information, that's not a made up story (Fish Out of Water Psychology), I didn't mean you could blatantly disrespect me with your hands either. I don't like touching you. Okay? OKAY?! I even bother to give you a hug every night despite the circumstances because there is something sad about that, but God, if you get the wrong idea... Then fuck you, Bev. What else happens after you have experienced Fish Out of Water Psychology? The other thing that happens is Jason gets so fucking pissed off thinking about the situation, it fills him with murderous rage, armed with a black magic weapon. And it requires hatred to complete the spell, so as we say here, we point to Jason and yell "HATE!" And me and my friends laugh, God, oh MY God, like Oh my God, I can't believe Jason doesn't get that my spirit guides are everything to me. What part of that did you not get? You are just Mannequin A. Yeah, I liked you at one point, but I was young. So, to sum up, after you survive Fish Out of Water Psychology, you have to survive the anger and hatred of others who think you lie. And outsiders run in, point at you, "HAHA! You're an evil bitch!" But I know better. And that's what keeps me going. My sky high self-esteem. [Abrupt Ending]