Jason Gives Emily Her "Dream"

The beginning of this story starts about a year ago. One thing that happened around this time, Jason mentioned to Emily that Rachel checks the Roger Hannibal account everytime she is unfriended. This was NOT true. Actually, I assumed Jason wouldn't unfriend me again. So this time, they laughed about how the reaction to another unfriending would be immediate. And unfriended me again, Emily thought she would get a good laugh and ended up getting hurt instead. No, the reaction was not immediate, Subbie decided to check several days later and saw that Roger Hannibal was no longer on her friends list. You know, I wouldn't normally care if Jason was technically my "friend on Facebook," but I got pissed at the diss because the first time this happened, my aura got shattered (what a weird thing to have happen, I know), and I ended up attempting suicide, since I was on the streets. And yes, Rachel was on a Death Plane (spiritual plane) when making the video saying Jason will see her face in his nightmares, by the way. I was close to death. Anyway... Instead of a good cheap laugh Emily was expecting, they got a blog that stayed up one day and then came down, pointing out that Ethan didn't regret committing suicide, and Jason was considered a psychopath by my guides. I took it down right away, went into turmoil for a second, and spiritually attacked Jason and Emily simply by thinking about projecting bad energy. That was all I did to spiritually attack them. Of course, for the let down, Emily wanted revenge. Jason told her about something you can do to people for revenge that is supernatural (a warning sign due to the bad karma you will receive from this situation, both of them), and Emily threw a fit wanted to get her way and said this was her "dream." This is the part I do not understand. What is going through both their minds, but Jason's in particular, when he agrees to this situation. I simply cannot fathom what would bring you to do this to your friend, and neither can the spirit world. This also destroyed what was left of Jason's semi-good reputation on the other side. The good news is, my guides did something to prevent it from having the desired effect on me, and the world remained at peace for the time being in my world, though I was grappling with serious depression anyway at the time due to uncertainty about the mission and whether it was real or not, despite the mindflip, due to the downward spiral in my world. Well, Jason was upset alright about doing this to Rachel, I will tell you that, I don't know exactly what he was thinking but I do know that giving Emily her dream destroyed what was left of Jason (and in turn Emily's) life. Jason got a horrific demon. I don't understand why I didn't suspect this earlier, something was wrong with Jason. My guides said, doing this, despite costing the Farnworth family more than a month's paycheck out of Jason's salary, caused Jason to stop caring about others and be full of hate toward everyone. He got a demon, lost all his friends due to rudeness, wrote to Rachel when she was contemplating suicide and ended up talking her into it, and much much more. It destroyed everything. Jason also got some misconceptions about Rachel, as the demon convinced Jason that Rachel was lying about attempting suicide at all (or at least several of the times) and Jason was mad at Rachel. It defies reason and logic. And after recent events this year, as Jason continuously does black magic and hires others to do black magic, he gets pissed because every single thing he does is unsuccessful. He's trying to get a rise out of Rachel, see. He wants to see fear, screaming, and panic. And I am stellar about remaining calm through it all, as my guides have spent a lot of time training me. Now, after hiring witches to force Rachel to kill herself was unsuccessful (remember, Jason has a demon), it comes out that Rachel was innocent on all charges, she didn't lie about anything at all. We are also in the same boat again as Rachel was with with Hugh, as Jason has a demon and no matter what Rachel says or does, Jason hates her unconditionally. Nowadays, Jason sits in his room day after day and does black magic against Rachel. He remembers what Rachel said about Jason and Rachel's relationship on the other side. Jason does all sorts of degrading things to Rachel and Jason and Rachel both love it, is what I was told. One of the goals of living this lifetime is to end this relationship between Jason and Rachel on the other side, as it hinders Rachel's spiritual growth, and self-respect is a value spirits need. So, Jason casts love spells that have been dwindling in efficacy due to Rachel's growing hatred of Jason. He does things and Jason likes pretending that Rachel loves it too, though he is probably kidding and knows Rachel hates it, he's egged on by the malicious demon inside him. I personally interpret the situation as such, Jason is trying to force Rachel into mental breakdown. On a positive note, this ended up being massively harder than Jason originally thought (understatement). However, despite Rachel clearly being the good guy here, and she is doing God's work... I don't know what Jason is thinking, if he is in denial, or if he just doesn't care which is possible too. Everyone is unhappy with Jason, including Emily as she has to put up with her husband continuously doing love/sex spells on another woman, despite being "so so so moral" and not actually cheating. No one wins in this situation. And Rachel may be suffering on a death plane, as of yesterday. What happens now? DUN DUN DUN... DUN...

Ye ole' Abortion Topic (Let's Stop Saying Ye)

So we can conclude from these recent events that God wants abortion to be legal. That's what I concluded. It's the best of both worlds outcome as we understand that the abortions that have already happened aren't some horrible tragedy that God is angry about, and women should be able to have access to abortion within reason. Actually, I personally think, despite my own actions, abortion should be limited to first term only and you should watch your fucking period if you miss one, Rachel Zuhl. That happened the first time and I said hey, mindflip's whack! This has been a required personal exercise in reassessing beliefs and opinions on abortion from an adult perspective, not blindly following what I was taught. One thing my guides pointed out to me, the baby did suffer the first time during the second term abortion in a way that would upset me. Of course, we did parent the baby beforehand, instilling into him our value of toughness, and he knew he was going to a better place too. Most unborn babies probably don't know that. Also, I'm thinking back to my childhood stance on the issue of parental notification of abortions, and thinking what the fuck. I used to be opposed to that, however I wasn't highly opinionated either way. Now I think there must be someone else you can talk to if you feel scared of your parents in that way. You should probably assume the parents are the good guys here. That is all. EDIT: Exception for health concerns for both baby or mother, including birth defects. That's what Rachel Zuhl and friends think.

The Wizarding World of Rachel B

I just forgave Jason yet again, but remembered I forgot what just happened a week or maybe two, dunno, ago. Well, I remembered what Kurt Wilson just told me and I haven't actually really talked to him. "We disapprove of this guy." Some do. That was his opinion. And, you know, he's a little bit hard to handle by some, but some like is wonderful books and charm and with and humor. Some do, on the other side. I don't regret saying that to Jason, just thought that was weird. Just a though, it's fine I guess but he won't think so. Well, the karmic lifetimes for stuff. This isn't normal stuff, you know. Just a thought. And we're all wizards here. Also, I was thinking about motivation. What I want most is an A on the mission. I want what God wants in terms of abortion rights. And, no inhumane treatment at hospitals. Leave me alone with your needles and empty rooms and imprisonment. It annoys me now... To think of taunting by others, but that annoys me now. I won't care about taunting. That's what I think. What else? Ahh, nothing. Love, healthy baby.

The Wizarding World of Rachel

So what happened next in the wizarding world of Rachel? Well a lot of stuff, but what actually happened first was the witches got sick of Jason and sided with Rachel. That's what happened. So they come and check in every once in awhile, since I can feel there vibes... It's all fine and cool. Then what happened? Well, Jason just keeps going nuts with the black magic. So the witches said, hey we'll retaliate. They said that eventually, it was getting so ridiculous. So then the Dark Duo of Infamy retaliated against me the next day. I didn't do anything, but I wasn't sure that was the point, but if it was... Expect more, Dark Duo of Infamy. They even got the "Kingpin" out there, saying hey pipe down the black magic against someone who we found innocent. Originally, Jason gave them a slandersplodge of lies about me. And then I was kept up with a weird spell several nights in a row. And... What the hell do I know anymore? But besides whatever my guides will do, their black magic is going to backfire onto them and cause them some problems.

Sweet Jesus, I Hate Jason Farnworth

The question at any moment is, "Do I actually have a hatred cord to Jason Farnworth?" The answer right now is yes. Sometimes... Energetic stuff happens, we'll leave it at that, and I remove the hatred cord. And then it builds back. I can reach out and touch people with my mind. There are situations related to this phenomenon that I call "zippy things." The other day I reached out and touched Jason with my mind while lying on my bed going to sleep. He held me for quite a few moments, he hugged me over and over again (or was it just my internal organs he was hugging?), I felt a ping from his wife, and then I got a Facebook message, the next moment. It was from Jason. He said while we were having quite a vibe for a second... He said something about how I no longer qualified for the mission and it was being given to someone else. I responded with a "thank you." I was glad he said that, he just confirmed the reality of that type of zippy stuff. That was more important than you can ever imagine. I didn't know what the point of the other part was, and I wasn't offended. He was trying to be rude, I found out, and that was a joke to me that he thought that was going to be effective. I already hate Jason (heavenly break ups are hard, obviously). I was hoping he was okay and giving him a hug of forgiveness, but regardless fuck it. This was a joke to me. You know, the mission is NOT a joke to me. I am no longer looking to you for confirmed reasoning on it, either. And the other thing about it, the mission has been in progress for 35 years. If you understand the state of my thoughts/mind, I just keep thinking about how grateful I am that the depressing parts are over. I go over that over and over again, wow I'm glad I'm done with the conversation issue, even though they started correcting it as many as 13 years ago. So that's ineffective, if you think that bothers me... Anyway, he said a whole bunch of other stuff that was a joke to me. As my guides say, he's "deranged" right now. He said something I thought was weird about how you know I won't have my looks forever, sort of implying that that's what my self-worth was based on, which is a groan and a facepalm. Okay, no. Good looks are "novelty item." Kind of like a nice car. It's not a reflection of self, I've said this before. I thought it was stupid he didn't know that. I could look back at all the irrelevant crap he's said in the past two days, but I don't feel like it. Oh yeah, something about how my guides were teaching me to be in love with myself. Well I like myself and it sure beats low self-esteem... And I'm suffering every second due to lack of human relationships, I'm focused on the coming of the future though, for now, so I tell myself I am happy regardless. I'm not "complete" without love or good companionship (at least I have the spirit world). Everything he said was a complete joke to me. I encouraged him to keep going with the insults. It will prepare me for the public arena. I'm not sure that there was anything ever all that good about Jason besides being the one to introduce me to mysticism. I think he needs some more sleep, and I'm wondering if he will even get it then. As they say, "seeing is believing."

How Are You Today, Rachel?

How am I doing today? How the hell am I doing today? Well, first and foremost... I'm impressed with myself and how strong I am, that's predominant. I'm feeling confident. Faith is at a high point. There are too many things to think about, like always, but now more than ever! Where do I start? Where the hell do I start here? Well, I don't want to over-extend myself, get over confident with my invincibility, and fall over and flop all of a sudden, is a thought. I have to give myself time to process and settle. Things are weirder than weird as always, but now more than always. Wow, what a year 2022 has been! It's been ridiculous... And as the woh woh woh alarm went off this year, I'm warned here that this might cause fame to seem even more daunting than it already is. Ahhh!! Fame!! Ahh! Shit hits the fan I guess, soon... And time inches by! Slowly, slowly... And I like that. Lots of vibes, weird energy, pings and pongs all over the place... Lots of people thinking about me. You think you know, but you have no idea. "That's the joke." Hated and scorned upon by some, Rachel knows something about the situation that some people would think is ridiculous... What do all these events mean? Something is about to happen, and it's divine intervention. And at first glance... You would think I have a boring life, huh? To whomever... "What goes on in your bedroom, Rachel?" Well, it's well established that after awhile bizarre paranormal phenomenon starts happening, stuff that's in no book. Do people do these things on a conscious level or a subconscious level? I guess subconscious, is a thought. Hmm. Well, one thing that happened, there was a day in my room a situation that came up randomly with both Jason and the witches... (no I was the only one there, okay)... This situation in your life, that's sick and sad and makes us feel rotten. Really, really rotten. And... This may have been them talking to me subconsciously. Or, my guides wanted to point out that particular issue to me and make me think on it. Hmmm.. Then I had a breakthrough. That situation is important to my case. Doop di doop di doop... I'm overwhelmed, self-confidence is sky rocketing, and I'm scared of what happens when I'm famous. I'll do it though, duh. I think I'm overreacting and it will be fine! Will I be happier, though? "Are you happy now?" Huh. Is anyone? The answer is yes but I want change. I want change. All of the things about fame I used to want, don't sound fun anymore. But I want people in my life to talk to about things. What is the real issue? I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

Why We Don't Have Friends

We know why we don't have friends. Some people don't have friends because they are way too unique. Not a whole lot of stuff in common with others. That's my own reason. Other people don't have friends, because if they find out someone likes them, they make a repulsive show of how much they hate that person. And the person goes, "Woah woah woah! Believe me, it wasn't that important at all, geez.." And no one will like the first person again.

Things I Value

Two things off the top of my head: Courage and Character. Things I don't value: Hatred. Things that make me laugh: Repulsive Demonstrations of Hatred. People who do things like this are called retarded sociopaths. "How many people like that do you know, Rachel?" "Just one."