My Teachings On Sexuality

So I've been ruminating more than usual for the past few days. One of the things I was thinking about is sexuality, and how for some reason, I just seem to understand sexuality better than other people. I often find myself thinking this.

For example, one time I was reading an article in a magazine about a girl whose neighbor secretly filmed her while she was changing and stuff. At the end of the article, she said that if you want to see girls naked, buy porn, don't film your neighbor. Now, for the record, I'm no voyeur. But I was reading this and thinking, "well duh... the thing that is attractive about voyeurism to voyeurs is the idea that whomever they are watching doesn't know they are being watched." It's just common sense, man.

So anyway, I find that as a society we are still unfortunately stuck on trying to accept people who are gay. But the truth is, no one chooses their sexuality and what they are into. But they have a choice in what activities they partake in.

But back to to homosexuality. The truth is, biologically, the purpose of sex is reproduction. Obviously! It does this in two ways: the more obvious way is that it makes women pregnant, the less obvious way is that it strengthens the bond between the parents who are raising the kid. But, for whatever reason, some people are gay. There are some people on this planet who seem to think the Earth is dangerously underpopulated, so we need everyone to be straight to churn out enough kids.

Gay people are lucky in away, compared to some people, in that they can still have satisfying sexual relationships without hurting anyone. Some people are attracted to children. This is not a choice. It's not their fault. Why would anyone want to be attracted to children? But if you are a pedophile, you just have to accept that you are never going to have a satisfying sex life. It's like having a disability. Same goes for people who want to have sex with animals.

And, I know that being attracted to things like sex with children or sex with animals seems wrong. I'm not saying it isn't wrong. That's exactly why it is attractive to some people, it's the wrong factor of it. It's a mistake in the way they are wired. At least, that's how I see it.

The way I see it, gay people are probably born that way. Actually, I heard once that there is a gene that gay people commonly have, but some straight people have it too and it appears to be due to environmental factors whether or not that gene is expressed. People with sexual deviations probably developed that way, it could be due to sexual abuse when they are young or something else. People can be aroused due to sensory input, usually visual, or they can be aroused due to emotions. With gay people, my theory is, it has more to do with how they react to sensory input. With people with sexual deviation, it is how they react to certain emotions. Most people respond at least a bit to both, I think. People respond to certain facial expressions, if they remind them of an orgasm face, and this is actually an emotional reaction. See, I used to read about sexual deviations on the internet. I learned about the sneezing fetish. At first the idea of a sneezing fetish didn't make any sense to me. Then I read the article about it, and it has to do with the fact that people make a weird face when they momentarily lose control and it can remind people of an orgasm. The desire to rape people is emotional, because they are turned on by the sense of power they get over another person. People can also be turned on by things that seem wrong, like I already mentioned, or things that seem completely gross. For whatever reason, they are just wired that way.

This concludes my teachings for today on sexuality.

Rick Perry, Gays, and Global Warming

So I've been discovering the wonders of taking Zyprexa as a prn (in case you don't know a prn is a medication you take as needed). Actually, being Zyped isn't that wonderful (I made up the term Zyped), but it's not as bad as I thought it was before. One of the staff here told me that Zyprexa inhibits the reuptake of serotonin, which would mean that it should actually make you feel better. Knowing this makes the experience of being on Zyprexa more pleasant. It feels the same only now it's not bad. Yes, it's all mental. Zyprexa is an antipsychotic that is supposed to decrease psychosis and delusional thinking.

I was on the writer's forum that I go to, and someone posted a link to an article about people who think our acceptance of gays is causing natural disasters (and 9/11). Now, this wouldn't be a big deal if the people we were talking about were just the Westboro Baptist Church. But it's people associated with Rick Perry, one of the Republican forerunners. Which is freaking scary, because he could be our next president. I'm thinking that he could be worse than Bush.

Yeah, so apparently some people on the right have noticed the increase in natural disasters. Instead of the obvious culprit, global warming, they blame the gays. Why are some people so fucking stupid? I mean, I don't want to be a hater, but seriously.

So anyway, I start thinking about this and I go back to thinking about my delusions. These people can't use their own judgment to see that homosexuality is a victimless (non)crime, and therefore really isn't a problem. But since it says something in the bible about homosexuality, they blindly trust what the bible says. My delusions were about religious fundamentalists and global warming. Basically, one of the premises behind my delusions was that religious fundamentalism makes global warming worse, because of stupid god damn values voters, who vote the way they do because of issues like gay marriage. I remember the 2004 election well, and I'm of the opinion that Bush would not have been re-elected if it weren't for values voters and gay marriage. The idea behind my delusions was not that Democrats are right about every issue across the board, but they are right about the most important issue, which is global warming. And while I may have been delusional, I still believe this.

Anyway, I was thinking about some other things too, but I think I'll just leave it there. On a different but related note, I've decided to write another book where I reflect more on my delusions and the experience of being delusional. I feel this may be even more important than my first book, but my first book is necessary back story.