Last Night's Dream

Last night's dream was a flash back to when I was dreaming at Innercept. It involved being driven around in the car, a girl was there I knew during that time period of Innercept. There was this song playing in the dream, this song that was on the radio when I was at the hospital when I was refusing my medication that was causing me brain damage. I don't want to say the name of the song, but the lyrics were changed to "eight weeks in hell," which was a reference to my previous progam Sanctuary house, and how I was there for eight weeks and how it was heaven compared to being forced to take this medication. I purposely got kicked out there because I couldn't handly living without stimulants at that particular time.

The song was a hyped up rendition of a song on the radio I was listening to at the hospital, with this clownish bouncing around, hyperventilating, Nazi Germany German feeling. It made me sick to my stomach, I woke up puking my guts out on the inside. It was as if my psyche was saying to me, "Hey, remember this song?"

Anyway, I woke up feeling god awful. I can't believe I was once in a position where I was getting brain damage from a medication I was being forced to take, alongside the idea that I was wasting away in a hospital in North Idaho with no hope for my future.

I woke up puking my guts out on the inside, with some sort of understanding that I was healing from this particular situation and that's why I was having this dreaml.

Life, Turn For the Annoying

Anyway, so as of late, life as a weird emotional connotation. Kind of like this bizarro world emotional connotation.

I'm hoping it's relevant to when a little over a world ago, the world started to take on a bizarro world connotation. I was having fun, going through altered states, cut off from the world... Fired up Twitter and what was President Trump doing? Anyway, and the weather was weird as hell...

There is some reference in my mind to this dream I had junior year of high school. I had three total dreams during my junior year of high school, which had a strong espionage emotional connotation. In another one, I was in the dorm Callahan (a building that looked like that dorm upon further inspection, after becoming delusional). The bad guys were coming to get me, and I swung on a rope off the building and slid down the rope. It had a really official emotional connotation that dreams don't typically have.

In the dream in question, I actually didn't remember the dream at all until it came up in my life about six months ago. In the dream there is an alien, an overgrown baby, a microwave, and a rope (as well as some other emotional constructs), moving around a upscale condo. There is some sort of lag effect, where you wait a few seconds and everything is in a different place around the condo, and there is never fluid movement.

This song, Marcus Marr Familiar Five, reminds me of the emotional connotation of all the dreams. I listen to this song to try to remember them better.

Another thing that happened, while I was listening to this song, I started imagining a bloody swimming pool. That's a reference to something in Party Like Jesus.

Anyway, in about February of this year I started to imagine all these objects circulating around my head, in the back of my mind.

And then I realized, the alien isn't my mom. The alien is me.

Anyway, and I feel like an alien. Sometimes I have some sort of weird alien emotional connotation. Like I am an alien, looking out the lense of my brain through my eyes.

I kind of feel like I am about to die. Like I feel so weird, I can't imagine anything getting me out of my situation or whatever. It doesn't seem like it will right now, anyway. Of course, that doesn't make sense.

I guess it's all something about the way my brain is functioning right now.

The Unfriending Option

Dear Mark Zuckerberg,

Your Facebook product, while a fantastic idea, FAILS.

I enjoy your idea of keeping the people who unfriend you private. Your product, however, fails because it tells the user everytime someone unfriended them. If you were a smarter man, Mark Zuckerberg, you would realize that the people who are most bothered by this are the people who are not constantly writing you asking you to make changes in your design because they are the shy sullen types who aren't particularly assertive.

Wouldn't it be nice, if you didn't get notified when someone unfriends you? At least allow us the option of hiding the friend count. Why do you think we care so much about how many friends we have? Why don't we at least have the option of hiding the number? That is why I think you are socially inept, Mark Zuckerberg. There is this morbid fixation with how many friends you have!

The truth is, I have kind of a past on Facebook. In the past, I have not one, but TWO suicide attempts after being blocked on two different accounts from the same fucking guy on Facebook. It's a long story, I was delusional twice, he had a wonky romance cord to me which is powerful and made his opinion the ONLY PERSON in the entire world's who mattered. So from then on, the negative energy from two suicide continuously colors my Facebook experience. And turns it, from a fun time with friends, to a DARK WEBSITE OF DESPAIR. I hate your product, Mark Zuckerberg.

Anyway, it wasn't an issue be unfriended while I was at Innercept. It was the biggest non-issue in the entire world, when I noticed the friend count go down. It was only when I got home from Innercept and started pouring emotional energy into Facebook that I started getting a feeling reminscient of the blocking situation (obviously on a much smaller scale) everytime I noticed the friend count go down. It brings up that SAME EMOTIONAL ENERGY everytime I see it.

AND I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK if some piece of shit on my friend's list decides to unfriend me. BIG FUCKING WHOOP! And if I knew who it was every single time, it wouldn't be an issue either! However, we are not allowed to know. It could be anyone! See, Subbie knows who she likes on Facebook and also knows who she does not like. If Subbie hates someone, Conscie does not particularly care for them either. And it surprises me at times, when I look at the person's profile and see the Add Friend button after an unfriending, and breathe a sigh of relief because the unfriender in question was someone who Subbie believes to be a SOCIOPATH. So yeah, I know who you are, you liked a status and now you think you have some sort of emotional grip on me, I know who you are, so unfriend to be passive aggressive and it is just so funny. Anyway, I don't care when I look at your profile and it was someone Subbie hates, I very seldom give a fuck that someone unfriended me EVER when I KNOW WHO IT IS! And then, Subbie regales me with a funny story about them being a piece of shit.

And then I see people, who unfriend to be passive aggressive (the reason they do this is always the same, and I am not going to say the reason out loud). You have this little disgusting smirk on your face when I picture read you. And I wonder, WHY THE FUCK DO  YOU THINK I CARE, Ms. Video Lady? No, why do you think your opinion is important? And do you not know, the only reason I am ever unfriended nowadays is because someone wants to purposely hurt my feelings (barring a couple other reasons I'm not getting into).

Anyway, Mr. Fucking Facebook Creator, your product is shit. Is it some sort of request people have been giving you, that you are not allowed to hide the friend count? Have a bunch of SOCIOPATHS been writing you and telling you PLEASE OH PLEASE Mark Zuckerberg don't allow people the option to hide the god damn friend count? Because they want oh so bad for people to know when they were unfriended so that they feel bad, and their identity is protected. It is a sociopath's DREAM! You are a sociopath to me Mark Zuckerberg, and your furry furry head is so endearing too and I would love to put a picture of you in front of my television screen so I can watch MARK ZUCKERBERG every single day on the television, to remind me of that wonderful time you were in front of Congress!

Anyway, I love you. You are cute as hell and really really sexy and stuff and I actually do like your product I was just playing. But please, allow us the option of hiding the friend count.

Yours Truly,

Rachel Zuhl

The Estuary: No One Loves You

The estuary is the cold reality of life. After all, who really loves anyone anyway?

I have no emotional closeness to anyone. I have only two friends I can talk to via the internet about real issues, one of them is going through a really hard time himself so I don't want to overburden that person, the other I have to hold back from because of a difference in belief systems.

I have parents who say they love me, but they don't really love me in a real way. I guess that's something though, isn't it? I imagine they try to the best of their abilities to love me, they are just incapable of really loving someone. When I was in the psych ward in Coeur D'Alene, refusing a medication that was causing me some sort of weird psychological problem on a subconscious level (thoughts kept repeating for a scary length of time), my mom comes in and the first words out of her mouth are, "IF YOU REFUSE YOUR MEDICATION WE WILL GET YOU INJECTED WITH IT!"

So I don't really feel like my parents love me. After all, they told me the time when I was doing the best, was the time when I was suicidal and sleeping all the time. I was doing better then then when I was happy, apparently.

And it comes down to, who really loves anyone? We are taught that your parents are the ones who love you unconditionally. And I'm not asking for unconditional love. But come on, all it is is an energy cord that makes them feel that way. Is that true love?

Sometimes, though, I feel like my parents like me as a person.

Anyway, I get love from unseen forces, and from myself. And I think, this is enough.

The Bible and Mediumship: Using Black and White Thinking to Take Things Out of Context

At one point in my journey with my spirit guides, they were talking about an energy worker I had received work done awhile aback. While she was a legit energy worker, my guides lamented in the fact that she had some hokey belief in astrology and that astrology, in general, is full of shit.

And I believed them at the time. And still do.

However, there came a point when one of my friends was writing to me, talking about astrology and I remembered what my guides has said about astrology being full of shit. I wrote him a message back expressing this sentiment, and as I did so, I heard groans coming from the other side.

"We meant western astrology, this particular form of astrology, the time of astrology she was using! In western society, it's usually a safe bet that when they mention astrology, it's a hokey pseudoscience with no merit whatsoever! We didn't mean EVERY SINGLE FORM of astrology!"

So apparently, there are some forms of astrology that have a small amount of merit.

Anyway, what I am getting with this is, this same reasoning might be applied to the Bible and what God says about mediumship.

There is some talk that mediumship is explicitly forbidden in the Bible. It is commonly spoke of in conjunction with "passing through the fire," which is an old school Pagan reference. You would imagine that this belief system and the practices therein are what God is warning people against, not the explicit practice of communication with those who are not living.

You have to keep in mind that in the time of the Bible, the practice of mediumship was a common practice in Paganism.

What did Jesus say about mediumship? Nothing.

Nowadays, lots and lots of mediums are Christian. You would imagine that the mediums in the day of the Old Testament were not followers of God, and therefore, provided false guidance.

Commonly, New Age spiritualists accept the divinity of Jesus.

Hell?

https://www.josh.org/why-hell/

This raises the question of, what is righteousness?

This video argues that humans are inherently bad. You look at history, there are all sorts of atrocities.

This is kind of like Mother Theresa be argued as inherently wicked, based on looking only at personality profiles of people like Hitler and Stalin.

Why do we have to paint humanity with a broad brush? Is this what your Bible is teaching you?

Does your Bible teach you that humanity is inherently wicked? Well, that's not what I got out of it. Humanity includes all ends of the spectrum in terms of inherently good to inherently bad. We are given the freedom to choose. That means, we can choose good or we can choose evil.

We are, however, flawed. That simply means we fall short of the mark when it comes to a comparison with Jesus. Who is inherently perfect.

This is an example of when the attempt to reconcile a personal problem with scripture leads to bad thought processes.

It's a proven fact that atheists aren't more likely to commit murders and other despicable crimes. Most of us know atheists we know have good hearts. Using their own free will powers of logic, they came to the conclusion that God doesn't exist. I don't agree with this conclusion, but I believe there are atheists that find motivation to be good people within themselves without the Bible and the notion tha they are being judged.

The only conclusion you can come to from watching this video is that this person believes that nonbelievers are bad people. And that righteousness in all forms comes from God.

It's time that we reject this theory. Instead of saying we are inherently ugly until blasted with the light of God, maybe we should say there are varying levels of ugliness and beauty in us all. People are judged based on their actions, not their belief system about how the world originated.

It also raises the question of, what is hell? And it is my personal belief that if you are a bad person, you live in a personal hell. In the afterlife, people can see you for what you really are. And the more wicked you are, the more miserable you are.

It comes down to, maybe you should adjust your interpretation of scripture, rather than adjust your worldview to a belief system that promotes hatred.

Do Ancient Belief Systems Have Value?

One question that comes up when you tell people you are Christian is, why the God of the Bible? Why not Greek Gods and Goddesses?

It is my personal belief system that some spiritual belief systems have value, while others don't. For example, I label religions such as Satanism as False Religions. Meaning, for me, there is no value in studying them. There are other belief systems like this, but I choose not to point fingers.

My belief about pantheistic belief systems is that they are not false religions. They have a lot of value to them. However, obviously, I don't believe these gods and goddesses really exist.

One of the important tenets for understanding religions is redefining the definition of "truth." When you are dealing with literary truth, the value cames from the ideas presented in and that naturally flow out of the stories told. You don't dismiss the stories as unimportant because they didn't really happen.

Throughout the ages, you see civilations that formulated their own religious beliefs, when direct divine guidance is absent.

Spiritual belief systems are presented to help the spiritual growth of a civilation (or more than one). Just like in mysticism, delusions come about to help personal psychological growth and personal spiritual growth.

After all, it is the world we live in that is an illusion. Us, as individuals and spirits, are the only things that are really real.

Myths are a creative take on the repeating themes that come up when living within this illusion.

The challenge is to build up value within yourself, within your soul, and not the artificial desires of the ego, such as physical attractiveness, a cool job, celebrity friends, etc.

The "AHHH!!" Phenomenon

The "AHHH!!" Phenomenon is the problem presented when spirits (living or otherwise) are trying to do something, but are confined by the properties of matter, time or space, or, more significantly, LOGIC.

A hokey example of the "AHH!!" Phenomenon comes from the movie Serendipity (I hate this movie by the way). The main character meets a woman, they are perfectly in tune, and they decide to get on opposing elevators, press a number, and see if they end up on the same floor. And they do press the same number! Except, a little boy comes and presses all the elevator numbers in the man's elevator!

Man, we were perfectly in tune, but the properties of random chance got in the way! Or was it the devil? After all, the little boy was wearing a devil costume!

At any rate, this scenario is dumb for a different reason if the little boy were an embodiment of the devil. The two of them were perfectly in tune, but the combination of the two of them brought out personal weaknesses in the main character.

Another example could be something like, you were destined to save the world, and you had a book on your computer you were destined to circulate. Then bam! Your hard drive crashes.

If you are in a situation where you are important to the universe, the universe acts as a tool. It will provide you what you need when you need it, and challenge you when you are in need of being challenged.

Who Has Burden of Proof?

When it comes to the debate regarding a conscious or self-aware being at the beginning of creation, one we call God, who has burden of proof, atheists or theists?

First off, let's define God. God is a being who has thoughts and is self-aware, though perhaps not infallible, all knowing, all loving, etc. In otherwords, a being with consciousness willed the universe into existence. Also, there could be more than one, although I believe there is just one.

Some basic claim in debate is that the person with the claim that is more outrageous has to provide valid proof to back up those claims.

Which notion is more outrageous? A universe that was willed into existence by God, or a universe that just is?

First off, who created this God? This is the question where we start bumping up against our own mind's ability to fathom. And accept that there is no logical answer to the question that doesn't create even more questions.

It comes down to this: the basic notion that the world is good, and the idea that God is capable of miracles.

Which, to atheists, is reminiscent of... Well my God transcends logic! So there!

There is some reason why you would expect if souls were NOT real, that your own personal identity is not real and just an illusion based on neurons firing in your brain (basically meaning we don't have souls, immortal or immortal), then the entire universe and everything that exists would not exist. Basically, there would be nothing at all.

And then the phrase comes into my mind, if a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound? If there is no one in the universe to experience the universe, is it really there?

My theory is that the world exists because the nature of the world is inherently good. At any rate, there is some sort of basic wisdom in the world that "life is good." If you ask me, I believe Earth is a place we come for spiritual growth and the real good stuff is in heaven. But that's just me.

Basically, the notion that spirits (or consciousness) comes before inanimate objects.

So who has burden of proof? Well, the atheist view is that in the beginning, there was nothing. And then, BAM! expansion.

Or we could boil it down to the concept of creativity. Have you ever something that did not have consciousness exhibit any creativity at all? God exhibited creativity while creating the universe.

This topic might be revisited later.

Sociopathy: A Mental Illness?

So, there was a point not too long ago when homosexuality was no longer regarded as a mental illness, due to people not wanting to be classified in with "those people." (obviously I don't think there is anything wrong with being homosexual, just like I don't think there is anything wrong with being bipolar)

However, what about the rest of us?

Today there is a problem with classification of mental disturbances. The swoop of a broad mental brush.

After all, it's the mentally ill who shoot up schools!

I propose a change in the paradigm in which we understand the topic of mental illness. Instead of removing categories from the mental illness category and labeling them normal, let's label mental illness as socially acceptable and remove one mental illness and label it as something else entirely!

The new category is, sociopath.

Woah! Woah! Woah! You're just schizoprenic. It's not like you're a sociopath or something!

We can label this in the difference in basic expression and experience of human emotion category, in case there are any other similar situations where people are just BAD PEOPLE!

Or maybe we should just call it, Sick Twisted Human Being category.

I know! It could be in the same category as sex offenders!

A common problem that schizophrenics face is they feel lumped together in a category with sociopaths. When they imagine "mentally ill" the paradigm includes bad people who are sociopaths.

Maybe, we should start a new paradigm for judgment of peoples' inherent goodness instead of just labeling some generic illness in their heads!

And to stay on the safe side, we will continue denying schizophrenics the right to own firearms.

Without God, the Mighty Tracing Team Traces!

So today I would like to explain to you that if you don't believe in free will, consciousness has no evolutionary purpose. Unless, it is a forceful push in one direction only. If the purpose were a more stronger, forceful reaction to stimuli than with an unconscious being, then that's your theory. Even so, the force of a reaction still implies some sort of influence that is up to you, the observer. Thus meaning we do have free will.

So if we do not have free will, all your conscious essence does is observe. It reaches conclusions and acts, but the same actions could obviously be reached by an unconscious being who has the same nature and the same nurture, or in other words, the same psychology based on past events, and the same genetics.

Genetics plays a role in experience. Past experience (including environment, which is an experience) dictate behavior. What does the soul (or consciousness) do? Well, nothing. If you don't believe in free will, you believe every decision anyone makes is predetermined beforehand. Consciousness appears to make decisions, but they are all based on factors in psychology. Nature and nurture. What does the conscious mind do? The conscious mind just traces its fingers over the process without influencing decision making.

So, we are the Mighty Tracers.

Atheist Asserts Conscious View

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6M9E6hUY740

Atheistic theory of consciousness, as based on this video.

By the way, go home, person who did this video. "The argument fails because it doesn't support a particular religion." This is just a theistic argument, meaning an argument for God. Not a religious argument.

"Awareness evolved to make sense of feelings"

"Consciousness evolved to allow organisms to respond more efficiently to their feelings."

First off, this person asserts that there is no evidence that consciousness can exist without a brain. That is not true. But the people who insist that they have experienced consciousness while dead or remember experiences from past lives, are scorned and ridiculed. There was a book I read called The Scalpel and the Soul by Allan J Hamilton, a neurosurgeon (fantastic read), where he described an incident where a woman was put under and her brain was shut off, and she could recall pieces of conversation from the doctors while she was out.

My question for atheists here is, what would this kind of evidence look like to you? If there was consciousness without a brain, how can you prove it? What would valid evidence look like?


Why do you need awareness to make sense of feelings? Does a computer need awareness to process input? Why does an animal requre awareness, and a computer does not?

That's the question. Quit it with the non answers.

"Respond more efficiently"

So, if there is sensory input that suggests pain, the organism responds more efficiently if it has awareness to feel this pain. So if you have a leg injury, the awareness will tell you not to use the leg, whereas with lack of awareness, you will still use it or use it a little bit. Or, be more efficient with not using the leg and remaining healthy.

EXPOUND PLEASE! Is what I am getting at.

Anyway, so with awareness, it creates drive. There is a DRIVE not to use the leg. There is DESIRE to remain pain-free. And DRIVE and DESIRE spurs into ACTION!

Or, more efficiently speaking, results.

What happened to the species in this situation that were not conscious?

There was a repeated signal sent to the brain to abstain from using the leg. It got sent everytime the organism desired to walk. The organism wanted to walk (wanted without consciousness, so there was some sort of survival mechanism in place telling the organism to walk), and the organism kept switching gears everytime the signal reminded the organism not to walk.

That's what happened.

Then, the organism starved to death. Because it kept getting a signal to walk to food and kept being reminded that the leg wasn't working.

What happend to the conscious being?

It slithered to food.

Why didn't the unconscious being slither to food?

No reason.

Bingo.

Anyway, I'm trying to give this shit show video credit. "Awareness evolved to make sense of feeling." Well, computers must have awareness, because they make sense of signals.

There you go. Computers have awareness.

Anyway, so what we have here with this argument that this guy is presenting that it is the DRIVE and DESIRE that create results.

This points to the idea that there may have been DRIVE and DESIRE at creation, which spurred existence into play. Obviously, drive and desire create better results!

Atheistic Hell Theory

So today we are going to discuss, Atheistic Hell Theory! Which is basically, a theory that even though God isn't real, hell is.

So, what is consciousness, anyway? We can all agree, since it is apparently the "hard problem" in atheistic philosophy, that it is pretty remarkable, can't we? And it's something that is non-physical. You can't touch it. You can't measure it. But you know it's real, since you experience it. In fact, some like me would argue, that consciousness is more real than the world around us. After all, the world may be an illusion, but we (or I) know for a fact that I exist, based on the fact that I experience thoughts, emotions, and feelings.

Well, first, what if this is just a natural side effect of life? When organisms get to a certain intensity in the evolutionary process, there is an interaction between the brain and the universe that creates a lightbulb phenomenon! And, out of matter and some property of the universe results a being that can reflect, think, self-reflect, and knows that it exists. It has experiences! Basically, consciousness.

Does it take a brain to create consciousness? Well, according to atheists, yes, so I will say yes. However, consciousness is non-physical. What if consciousness wasn't completely destroyed upon death? What if, fragments of the self-aware being scattered, and still existed long after the brain was dead? Without the ability to remember, of course.

How do you know it's not true? Why do you pretend to understand consciousness so well? Actually, we don't understand the concept of consciousness at all!

One thing is for certain, however, if awareness is separate from the body, it would experience pain. Without the neurotransmitters seretonin and dopamine, the soul would be in utter misery. And for all of eternity!

And that's Atheistic Hell Theory.

Thinking Outside the Human Framework: Tendency Towards Pessimism

One of the basic characteristics of human reasoning that I would like to discuss today is the tendency toward expecting bleak outcomes.

First of all, is pessimism an evolutionary advantage? Let's consider the event where you are in the wild, and there is suddenly a rustle in the bushes. Your first instinct in this situation is to consider that you might be in danger, it might be a predator. It is advantageous to your survival to induce the flight or fight response, a moment before you realize it is a harmless rabbit.

What would happen if humans always planned for the best possiblity first? Well, that's silly. It's important to plan for the outcome first that poses a threat to your survival. That philosophy lead to the rise of pessimism.

The human brain and human consciousness has evolved through a process of evolution, to the point where on a non-stop, consistent basis, it is constantly searching for problems and things that might pose a threat.

And, it is an evolutionary advantage to give the pessimistic view more attention and focus, so that you can act accordingly.

Most people, early on, experience the hardening that comes with life not living up to some childish fantasy. I could be the death of someone important to you early on. It could be that the love game doesn't live up to childish expectations based on what you learned from Disney movies. Whatever it was, it is a universal human experience to come to the conclusion that life isn't some sort of happy fairy dream, or even something a little bit less than a happy fairy dream.

Part of growing up involves the realization that the world is not a happy place a lot of the time.

When atheists use their judgment, it is an argument based on emotion. And, that's not to say that theistic arguments aren't based on emotion too. However, atheists like to think they are using reason instead of emotion and that's not the case. There is a natural inclination in the human brain, some nagging voice inside your head that tries to tell you your worst fear is also the possibility that is most likely. It is emotional logic based on what "seems" true to them. They have a feeling that when it comes to human existence and how the universe was created, the option that evokes the most depressing connotation is the accurate one.

Atheists try to deflate the concept of consciousness to something devoid of value. Well, it is an illusion, they say. What does that mean? Well I think "I think, therefore I am," applies here. You see atheists belittle the phenomenon of consciousness because it doesn't suit there atheistic worldview.

Based on the notion that the creation option that is true is the one you don't want to believe.

Consciousness is something that comes about from evolutionary processes, the result of a sophisticated brain.

My personal opinion is that the brain does not create consciousness, rather the soul does.

But anyway, so the possibility of consciousness is contained within the framework of the universe.

It's important to note that when I argue for God, I just mean a conscious being. I don't mean necessarily the God of the Bible, or a God that is truly omnipotent, infallible or even all-knowing. I am just arguing for the likelihood that there was self-awareness at the beginning of the universe.

So the ability to produce consciousness is innate in the universe. The argument that atheists make is, it requires a brain.

No one said it requires a brain. That's a purely human construct! You have consciousness. You have a brain. Your fellow humans have consciousness. They have brains. Animals probably have consciousness because they also have brains. In fact, the only thing that you really know is that you have consciousness, and that there is a strong correlation between how you experience your consciousness and how your brain is functioning. How do you know that other humans have consciousness? Well, you don't know! It just causes the fabric of your sanity to unravel if you start doubting that! Is that proof? No!

There's no reason to believe that consciousness cannot exist without a brain. There have been accounts of people dying and coming back to life, and remembering verifiable things about their surroundings tha took place while they were "out." What we do know is the functioning of the brain has a strong effect on MEMORY. So you typically don't remember what you dreamed about, that doesn't mean you weren't experiencing something while you were sleeping.

Anyway, so let's take the preconcieved notion that other humans have consciousness. Why do you believe that? Well, they act the same way I do, respond the same way I do, express thoughts that I can understand. Basically, through the human power of empathy.

Why does consciousness exist? I was looking into this, and this was apparently some sort of big mystery question that no one knows the answer to. One theory is it's to dictate what you pay attention to. If free will is an illusion, there is really no reason to have consciousness. Why is there consciousness, if free will is an illusion? If the human brain consists of data, perceived facts that can exist whether or not a conscious being is looking at them, why do you need a conscious being to tell it what to pay attention to, a conscious being that will act according to the facts and not internal mysterious conscious being innate personal traits irrelevant to the brain's knowledge? THERE IS NO REASON!

Well we don't know yet, the atheists say. Give us time! Give us time!

Maybe, consciousness is just a useless side effect created by the brain. A useless side effect, inherent with some strong desire to be significant, to be immortal, to be spiritual.

In effect, atheists are trying to convince you that YOU don't matter.

Dimension Swerving: The Final Frontier (Argument For God)

What is the sensory experience?

Let's take, for example, the color red. Red has a look to it, and it is a Qualia. May not look exactly the same to everyone, but hey, that's not the point. The point is, there is a feeling you get (or what you might say a look or tone or color), when one perceives the color red.

Can this feeling exist without consciousness? Can the color red exist without consciousness? The answer is, no.

It takes a sentient being to perceive qualia.

It could be anyone. Is there any empirical evidence that people really do perceive the color red? No. It is all in our minds!

What is the purpose of being sentient? To make conscious decisions regarding the propagation of your genetics.

Why does the being need to be sentient in order to make decisions?

Question for the class? What are some decisions a being can make with consciousness that it can't without?

Little Sally raises her hand. "The decision to worship Jesus!"

Very good Little Sally. What else?

Little Termerkatroid raises his hand. "The decision to take his own life!"

Very, very good Little Termerketroid. What else?

Little Beth raises her hand. "The decision to try and find meaning, a higher power, and a sense of purpose!"

Good Little Beth? And why, according to atheistic evolution theory, does consciousness exist?

For the answer, I did a bit of light reading.

https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/exmgez/sorry-religions-human-consciousness-is-just-a-consequence-of-evolution

https://evolutionnews.org/2016/06/new_theory_expl/

Basically, there was some review of thought processes necessary. FOR DEEPER THOUGHT processes...

IT TAKES A SENTIENT BEING!

Little Sally raises her hand again.

No, you got it wrong, Ms. Zuhl! LIVING ORGANISMS have deeper thought processes! It takes intense decision making to survive as a species, on an individual level! This same reasoning does not apply to the creation of the universe!

The Big bang was a very simplistic process. All of a sudden, BANG! Expansion!

Little Termerketroid raises his hand again.

NO, LITTLE TERMERKETROID! DON'T ASK FURTHER QUESTIONS ON THE BIG BANG!!!!

In essence, the atheist view is, the universe is TRYING EVERY SINGLE POSSIBLITY THERE IS!!! That's why it doesn't take intelligence. There is no intelligence behind the universe because if there were, it would require "deeper thought processes."

Then, BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As life forms evolve, the process of self-reflection was a result!

However, this is a completely meaningless process. It was something, that came out of nothing.