One thing I know from my experiences is that your personality and your awareness are two entirely separate things. Because at times I have felt my personality leave and I was just this being with awareness but no personality and there was something very awkward about it. You don't even know that these things are two separate things until you feel your personality leave.
The way psychics contact dead people, and the way hauntings work, is because that imprint of the person's personality is left behind on Earth. When psychics channel dead people, they call upon the imprint. They can do this, but that doesn't mean that person is okay. Their awareness might still be in hell. Hell is complete separation from God. God is good and He does not wish hell upon anyone. But He is NOT all powerful like people think.
You might not believe me, but listen to me when I say this is not something you take chances with. JUST DO IT. YOU ARE PLAYING WITH FIRE. Get baptized in the name of Jesus or whatever. Just do it to cover your bases.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Privacy
There are so many things going on in my life, but I am still really pissed about the journal thing.
I found out my mom had been reading my texts. I was so fucking pissed when I found out though. But still, somehow that doesn't piss me off as much as the journal thing did. To me, the journal thing was kind of like being raped. I have never been raped but these things are both huge personal violations.
It is not so much what I actually said in the journal but more of my attitude towards. It was something I saw as sacred and safe. I did not give Lea Schilling permission to read it. I did not give anyone except Erik permission to read it. I would not have given anyone else permission because I did not trust them.
It's like people do not have any sort of respect for me. They do not give me rights.
I do not understand why my mom gets mad when I call Lea Schilling names but she doesn't seem to be mad that they invaded my privacy. It's because she doesn't care. She's glad they did. But I will make it so she is not glad.
The only thing I am not willing to do right now is lie. Because I don't need to lie.
I found out my mom had been reading my texts. I was so fucking pissed when I found out though. But still, somehow that doesn't piss me off as much as the journal thing did. To me, the journal thing was kind of like being raped. I have never been raped but these things are both huge personal violations.
It is not so much what I actually said in the journal but more of my attitude towards. It was something I saw as sacred and safe. I did not give Lea Schilling permission to read it. I did not give anyone except Erik permission to read it. I would not have given anyone else permission because I did not trust them.
It's like people do not have any sort of respect for me. They do not give me rights.
I do not understand why my mom gets mad when I call Lea Schilling names but she doesn't seem to be mad that they invaded my privacy. It's because she doesn't care. She's glad they did. But I will make it so she is not glad.
The only thing I am not willing to do right now is lie. Because I don't need to lie.
Friday, February 1, 2013
The Importance of Not Journaling
I don't know, maybe I am being immature but the truth is I feel such a deep sense of betrayal over this. I feel so angry that I can't even have a space that is private, where I can write and I don't have to worry about mental health professionals coming and invading it. I thought journaling was healthy. Apparently it is not. I have changed my position about journaling and I would advise people against journaling.
It makes me even more angry that I know they thought they were justified in reading my journal by the way I was acting, but really it had nothing to do with anything I was doing. Right now I am fighting the urge to talk about all the violent things I want to do to Lea Schilling.
This is why you don't trust mental health professionals.
It makes me even more angry that I know they thought they were justified in reading my journal by the way I was acting, but really it had nothing to do with anything I was doing. Right now I am fighting the urge to talk about all the violent things I want to do to Lea Schilling.
This is why you don't trust mental health professionals.
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