The Jason/Rachel Relationship: The Worst Part of Everything

"So you had to take my death on faith. Hmm." Jason says. After all is said and done, and the friendship is done as God intended it to be... There's a part that bothers both of us. That said, it bothers him more now, but what a "stinker" of an issue. There was an occurrence all the way back in fall of 2019, that made Jason lose respect for me an maybe even stop liking me. On Kristen's good ole' Youtube channel, which I advertised on my Facebook page despite her warnings (my fault, right?), Kristen documented an incident in which the police were called to our house regarding me. Well, my dad thought I had drugged him. That's one thing that happened, and the police left immediately following the incident and my guides seem to think they thought I was innocent on this, which I was. I didn't drug my dad, my spirit guides put something in his system (means it's safe when guides do it). Would I have done that myself? Absolutely not. "I thought you gave your dad Geodon." "No. I would not have thought giving him anything at all was safe. And I don't know why you think I would have Geodon just sitting... Well, I guess you NEVER KNOW... You should know but you never know... I didn't, I didn't give him anything. This was an obnoxious occurrence to me to and it would definitely go against my moral values to drug someone. Jason sort of hated me after he watched this video that my lovely sister made, and well... There is some reason that you might take that at video at face value, not knowing that my guides do WEIRD THINGS... Weird things... Weird things... You know, I almost regretted telling Jason so many times, some of the things my spirit guides do are just so fucking weirdly obnoxious you have no idea. Because at the same time, there's also the factor of, "they're my friends... I am not even going to try to get rid of them... For the love of Elvis, stop going on about how I need to get rid of my guides!" Yeah, every once in awhile there's something that leaves me scratching my head that they do and annoyed as fuck. Well, you didn't think of that, did you Jason? Drugging someone else. "I wouldn't have thought they would have had that kind of power." Yes, they did. "The real issue that people wonder though, is why this occurrence went by quietly without an email to you. He never said anything at all to you about it." Yeah, I had no idea that was a big deal. Actually, I do think it would be a big deal had it been what actually happened... I didn't know he was watching my sister's Youtube channel, and he's psychic, and whatever I don't want to believe something that terrible. Was there anything I could have said to make him understand I was innocent? No, actually, and that's the thing. However... Vague speculation indicates it would have been easier to dismiss had it been addressed at the time, as opposed to never, or actually more specifically after his death. This has been bugging me, Jason more though, and he keeps bringing it up, and I'm like "Why are you here psychopath?" That's a situation with some edge to it, but I distract myself when it comes up by thinking about the funny part. Jason changed his "psychological model" of me when he saw that video. Jason admits, he is so fucking embarrassed about the impression he made every single second afterwards to me. The unfriending situation is ridiculously or superfluously stupid to him, now that he understands it fully. There was an assumption made about me that wasn't true, which was that taking advantage of a weakness in other people was something I consider "cool" or "edgy." "It was gag-worthy," Jason says. He's talking about thinking about me picture reading, thinking about the two of them laughing their heads off and at what? Jason agrees with me now, to say the least. The point of the drugging (they've put "drugs" in my system before, wish they would on command but they don't, no matter what I say) was to drive an edge into our relationship which had some staying power and just wouldn't quit, despite him being bad for me. I was hoping there aren't other people, or lots of people in the world, who have seen my sister's Youtube video and thought something bad about me because of that incident. My sins... Are between me and God, I guess. Not all that many, and God knew I would sin right there, but who's bragging? Anyway... (sorry).