The Jason/Rachel Relationship: The Worst Part of Everything

"So you had to take my death on faith. Hmm." Jason says. After all is said and done, and the friendship is done as God intended it to be... There's a part that bothers both of us. That said, it bothers him more now, but what a "stinker" of an issue. There was an occurrence all the way back in fall of 2019, that made Jason lose respect for me an maybe even stop liking me. On Kristen's good ole' Youtube channel, which I advertised on my Facebook page despite her warnings (my fault, right?), Kristen documented an incident in which the police were called to our house regarding me. Well, my dad thought I had drugged him. That's one thing that happened, and the police left immediately following the incident and my guides seem to think they thought I was innocent on this, which I was. I didn't drug my dad, my spirit guides put something in his system (means it's safe when guides do it). Would I have done that myself? Absolutely not. "I thought you gave your dad Geodon." "No. I would not have thought giving him anything at all was safe. And I don't know why you think I would have Geodon just sitting... Well, I guess you NEVER KNOW... You should know but you never know... I didn't, I didn't give him anything. This was an obnoxious occurrence to me to and it would definitely go against my moral values to drug someone. Jason sort of hated me after he watched this video that my lovely sister made, and well... There is some reason that you might take that at video at face value, not knowing that my guides do WEIRD THINGS... Weird things... Weird things... You know, I almost regretted telling Jason so many times, some of the things my spirit guides do are just so fucking weirdly obnoxious you have no idea. Because at the same time, there's also the factor of, "they're my friends... I am not even going to try to get rid of them... For the love of Elvis, stop going on about how I need to get rid of my guides!" Yeah, every once in awhile there's something that leaves me scratching my head that they do and annoyed as fuck. Well, you didn't think of that, did you Jason? Drugging someone else. "I wouldn't have thought they would have had that kind of power." Yes, they did. "The real issue that people wonder though, is why this occurrence went by quietly without an email to you. He never said anything at all to you about it." Yeah, I had no idea that was a big deal. Actually, I do think it would be a big deal had it been what actually happened... I didn't know he was watching my sister's Youtube channel, and he's psychic, and whatever I don't want to believe something that terrible. Was there anything I could have said to make him understand I was innocent? No, actually, and that's the thing. However... Vague speculation indicates it would have been easier to dismiss had it been addressed at the time, as opposed to never, or actually more specifically after his death. This has been bugging me, Jason more though, and he keeps bringing it up, and I'm like "Why are you here psychopath?" That's a situation with some edge to it, but I distract myself when it comes up by thinking about the funny part. Jason changed his "psychological model" of me when he saw that video. Jason admits, he is so fucking embarrassed about the impression he made every single second afterwards to me. The unfriending situation is ridiculously or superfluously stupid to him, now that he understands it fully. There was an assumption made about me that wasn't true, which was that taking advantage of a weakness in other people was something I consider "cool" or "edgy." "It was gag-worthy," Jason says. He's talking about thinking about me picture reading, thinking about the two of them laughing their heads off and at what? Jason agrees with me now, to say the least. The point of the drugging (they've put "drugs" in my system before, wish they would on command but they don't, no matter what I say) was to drive an edge into our relationship which had some staying power and just wouldn't quit, despite him being bad for me. I was hoping there aren't other people, or lots of people in the world, who have seen my sister's Youtube video and thought something bad about me because of that incident. My sins... Are between me and God, I guess. Not all that many, and God knew I would sin right there, but who's bragging? Anyway... (sorry).

Charlene Sabin: The Debacle

" " "Well, I didn't know that you REALLY didn't want the guardianship. I also didn't know that that situation in your life, the securing of the guardianship by your parents, would become the driving force of anger and rage that powers your entire existence practically . I didn't want to encourage the anger and loathing, aimed at your parents and at mental health professionals and most exclusively or predominantly psychiatrists. I didn't know you wouldn't react to a guardianship with anger if that was the case." " " WHAT?!?!? Do you lack empathy?! Open floor for discussion, (no one's perfect).

Extroversion: An Opinion

Friends accumulate. Need more. I can't deal without social interaction. Addiction to people in my face and all around me. You are an extrovert. You look cool. But... Hey, you know him? I do too. His name is J.C. Extroverts! Opinion! And clash! Yeah, so?

Jason Troy Farnworth Discusses "Rage Tolerance"

As the night settles, one thing after another, we come back to the abode and sit down with Jason Farnworth for a discussion. There was something he wanted to talk about about the "Facebook Hugh Issue." I say, it was all covered in Party Like Jesus though. All of that came up! I didn't know any of that was important and I understand the situation that the problem is no Rachel is subhuman. Okay Jason? I got the issue down pat! "No, no, no... This, this, this, this, this, and this from Innercept. I didn't understand a couple of these issues right here, okay. Umm." But, you know you know we know and all people know, people including and possibly but not always limited to Jason Troy Farnworth, understand that he is in charge always of getting his way and being on top and understanding everything and getting some sort of special important treatment and luxuries in life, duh. Says Rachel, scratching her head not understanding why he didn't know already it was all spelled out but it was Rachel and that was the reason he treated her that way. "Umm... No, this second suicide attempt, (to shorten the dialogue and stuff), what was the biochemically strange dark spot that came up right there and thing that would have prevented a suicide attempt. Also, a certain spirit saved your life there and intervened and got you to tell your dad and I didn't know that either, and that was important." "Why?" "Dunno, we'll discuss later. That's not it. I didn't want any part of the Hugh emotional internet mess. The underlying issue was that he said nothing ever, and that led to belief he, and later everyone, but mostly that person at the time and then me, didn't exist at all. And that was the underlying Facebook issue. Lack of personal existence of yourself." Hmmm. Why is that interesting? "Well, I thought that was sick to make a sick joke of that situation." Ha ha! We all thought so! YOU LOVE SICK! I know it! And you know it too! Go away! I already internalized subhumanness. "There's more though, okay." "No, you wanted to make fun of my weird issues no one understands in a way that was cruel and that was your point. Yes?" "Uh.." "Ha, I know, now back to reading the paper and talking to a mannequin! I will fight you off again next time you try to mutilate my body and live with mutilated body parts until they heal! And then some!"

Mental Health Problems Treated With Bogus Cures

We talk and laugh tonight, thinking about what is Rachel's biggest stress factor of the hour? The evil mental health system. Rachel says, "But the others... I don't have the diagnosed condition, but if you did..." Rachel is confused. Her guides laugh. "No. How often do you think it happens that people have aggression that is excacerbated by medication that reduces happy neurotransmitters?" Rachel stares. "More often than you can possibly imagine. It is more common than you would expect, even in your most intense nightmares." "That's why I'm on a God-ordained mission to fix the problem!" "Yes, of course Rachel." And then... But lock up the knives. Threat? No... If your parents lock up the knives the second you are diagnosed, it leads to internalization of the idea that you are considered a serious threat to society. And they told your mom to. And she didn't. "Wow what a great mother!" "Do you think so?" "No, I just think some people are stupider."