I find myself in a place where I'm not sure what the concept of ego means, or what exactly it means to be enlightened.
Sometimes I bounce against others, trying to say well I have this better than this person, or I'm better at this, or I'm better at this.
Sometimes though, I'm not bouncing off against anyone at all. What is it I want exactly? To have interesting experiences? Or to have other people appreciate the inner beauty I possess?
What do enlightened people... Scratch that. Forget about it.
Well for one, I think I am done trying to convince to myself that I am worthwhile, because I have done it already. We could stop right there, or is that a trait of sociopaths? Is it a sociopathic thought to try to stop caring how other people perceive you?
The answer is... Yes.
What was the alternative? Being dependent on other people's approval?
Well I don't want to do that either.
Is there a happy medium, little hummingbird? Maybe, I should take it as it comes, and enjoy the specks of light that dance in the dark, gloomy atmosphere of social isolation.
And now, the answer comes from within, which is... Radiance!
Radiate out inner beauty, power, and focus on pushing, pushing, pushing it out.
Moments when you catch a glimpse of your own inner beauty are few and far between. Accept it, try your best, no judgments.
Monday, December 3, 2018
Sunday, December 2, 2018
Physical Space is an Illusion
When I was in ninth grade, I started philosophy, within my own mind.
I remember my math teacher talking about the edge of the universe, if it is wrapped, etc. What happens when you reach the edge of the universe? Do you hit a brick wall? At any rate, this is a question that should blow your mind.
It did, and of course I had thought long and hard about this question previous to this, I just mentioned this because he mentioned that it was normal for this question to blow your mind.
It did at one point, and that's because I was an amateur. I've shifted my understanding of the concept of physical space to be more like what physical space is in my bug game, my own little simulated bug universe which is the computer game I made in high school.
When the edge of the universe conundrum blows your mind, that's when you realize there is an error in the way you think about the universe. When I started programming, I started telling myself that that was a dumb conundrum, a dumb question. It was the exact same thing as one of my bugs in the game asking what was outside of that double rock wall that surrounds the universe.
The universe we live in is run by a computer. That's my understanding. Is it different from yours? I honestly don't know, I've never asked anyone this question.
You've got to get over the idea that there is even a such thing as physical space. PHYSICAL SPACE DOES NOT EXIST!
And then you get to more basic hardwiring, which is that if something is not being observed, or is not part of/influencing something that is observed, it does not exist.
I made a remark one time, if something has to be observed to exist. If no one is currently looking at it, it is not there. I was referring to ideas, as in written history or works of fiction.
"Well that's not true. But that's an idea related to your current brain wiring due to mysticism, so we are not going to argue." That was the response I got on that.
You go back to the old, "If a tree falls in the forest, does it make a sound?" argument. Well no. However, some people say, there are still sound waves and such.
So apparently, it creates something, waves, on a grid that cannot be accessed by any conscious being. If no one can access the grid does it really mean anything?
Is physical space really there if no one can experience it? The answer is, it's irrelevant. Depends what your definition of is is.
So what I've done is, stepped away from the idea that physical space is real, and established that the only that is real is experiences.
I remember my math teacher talking about the edge of the universe, if it is wrapped, etc. What happens when you reach the edge of the universe? Do you hit a brick wall? At any rate, this is a question that should blow your mind.
It did, and of course I had thought long and hard about this question previous to this, I just mentioned this because he mentioned that it was normal for this question to blow your mind.
It did at one point, and that's because I was an amateur. I've shifted my understanding of the concept of physical space to be more like what physical space is in my bug game, my own little simulated bug universe which is the computer game I made in high school.
When the edge of the universe conundrum blows your mind, that's when you realize there is an error in the way you think about the universe. When I started programming, I started telling myself that that was a dumb conundrum, a dumb question. It was the exact same thing as one of my bugs in the game asking what was outside of that double rock wall that surrounds the universe.
The universe we live in is run by a computer. That's my understanding. Is it different from yours? I honestly don't know, I've never asked anyone this question.
You've got to get over the idea that there is even a such thing as physical space. PHYSICAL SPACE DOES NOT EXIST!
And then you get to more basic hardwiring, which is that if something is not being observed, or is not part of/influencing something that is observed, it does not exist.
I made a remark one time, if something has to be observed to exist. If no one is currently looking at it, it is not there. I was referring to ideas, as in written history or works of fiction.
"Well that's not true. But that's an idea related to your current brain wiring due to mysticism, so we are not going to argue." That was the response I got on that.
You go back to the old, "If a tree falls in the forest, does it make a sound?" argument. Well no. However, some people say, there are still sound waves and such.
So apparently, it creates something, waves, on a grid that cannot be accessed by any conscious being. If no one can access the grid does it really mean anything?
Is physical space really there if no one can experience it? The answer is, it's irrelevant. Depends what your definition of is is.
So what I've done is, stepped away from the idea that physical space is real, and established that the only that is real is experiences.
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