Last summer I had the dream, the one about finding God as an echo. When I drew closer to the source of the echo, I felt fear.
When I had the dream, there was a reference to the Akashic Records. Along with words, something along the lines of "Songs unsung, stories untold, words unspoken." I think this is a reference to me and my story from the Akashic Records.
With the fear I feel when getting closer to God, something that is striking about it is it isn't some sort of mortal fear. The question is, is there danger? I wonder if it is a reference to not being ready to stand face-to-face with the divine.
As I sit here tonight, I would like to encounter this feeling again. I have felt this feeling before, but it is not obvious when. Upon giving it some thought, it was in the dreams I had, following my first three episodes. At the beginning, the initial episode, the one I had in the fall of 2007, and the one I had just prior to leaving Innercept, my dream life was rich and slipped through my fingers when I awoke. I think the thing that made these dreams rich is that in each of them there was some sort of encounter with this force, this divine force.
Something else that comes up is that this may not be an encounter with God himself, but rather ultimate truth. Which is intricately intertwined with the divine, but there is a distinction between the divine and God Himself. God talks to people, and they don't experience this feeling.
In my mind, this divine force encapsulates all of humanity, and humanity's entire collection of literary truths. There is some feeling I get when listening to the word "om" when chanted that reminds me of this feeling.
Will I come face to face with the divine? When I do so, will I feel scared? This feeling of coming to close to the source of the echo, permeates my being.
