Meanwhile...

These posts prior to this one, about magic, this was not what I was thinking about consciously during April/May of 2022. I was thinking about ways to make money, my hopeless love predicament... I knew what my life lacked was close friendship. That's the society approved answer, but I don't know how to have friendships. I drew a lot of tarot cards, wished for Adderall in my head (no curses for such), and hung out with the depraved victims of society smoking their meth. That's what I did, and drew the 7 of cups meaning self-delusion. And I went to the gym everyday. (and she went to the gym everyday, GOD... So Full of Fuck..)