Charlene Sabin: The Debacle

" " "Well, I didn't know that you REALLY didn't want the guardianship. I also didn't know that that situation in your life, the securing of the guardianship by your parents, would become the driving force of anger and rage that powers your entire existence practically . I didn't want to encourage the anger and loathing, aimed at your parents and at mental health professionals and most exclusively or predominantly psychiatrists. I didn't know you wouldn't react to a guardianship with anger if that was the case." " " WHAT?!?!? Do you lack empathy?! Open floor for discussion, (no one's perfect).

Extroversion: An Opinion

Friends accumulate. Need more. I can't deal without social interaction. Addiction to people in my face and all around me. You are an extrovert. You look cool. But... Hey, you know him? I do too. His name is J.C. Extroverts! Opinion! And clash! Yeah, so?

Jason Troy Farnworth Discusses "Rage Tolerance"

As the night settles, one thing after another, we come back to the abode and sit down with Jason Farnworth for a discussion. There was something he wanted to talk about about the "Facebook Hugh Issue." I say, it was all covered in Party Like Jesus though. All of that came up! I didn't know any of that was important and I understand the situation that the problem is no Rachel is subhuman. Okay Jason? I got the issue down pat! "No, no, no... This, this, this, this, this, and this from Innercept. I didn't understand a couple of these issues right here, okay. Umm." But, you know you know we know and all people know, people including and possibly but not always limited to Jason Troy Farnworth, understand that he is in charge always of getting his way and being on top and understanding everything and getting some sort of special important treatment and luxuries in life, duh. Says Rachel, scratching her head not understanding why he didn't know already it was all spelled out but it was Rachel and that was the reason he treated her that way. "Umm... No, this second suicide attempt, (to shorten the dialogue and stuff), what was the biochemically strange dark spot that came up right there and thing that would have prevented a suicide attempt. Also, a certain spirit saved your life there and intervened and got you to tell your dad and I didn't know that either, and that was important." "Why?" "Dunno, we'll discuss later. That's not it. I didn't want any part of the Hugh emotional internet mess. The underlying issue was that he said nothing ever, and that led to belief he, and later everyone, but mostly that person at the time and then me, didn't exist at all. And that was the underlying Facebook issue. Lack of personal existence of yourself." Hmmm. Why is that interesting? "Well, I thought that was sick to make a sick joke of that situation." Ha ha! We all thought so! YOU LOVE SICK! I know it! And you know it too! Go away! I already internalized subhumanness. "There's more though, okay." "No, you wanted to make fun of my weird issues no one understands in a way that was cruel and that was your point. Yes?" "Uh.." "Ha, I know, now back to reading the paper and talking to a mannequin! I will fight you off again next time you try to mutilate my body and live with mutilated body parts until they heal! And then some!"

Mental Health Problems Treated With Bogus Cures

We talk and laugh tonight, thinking about what is Rachel's biggest stress factor of the hour? The evil mental health system. Rachel says, "But the others... I don't have the diagnosed condition, but if you did..." Rachel is confused. Her guides laugh. "No. How often do you think it happens that people have aggression that is excacerbated by medication that reduces happy neurotransmitters?" Rachel stares. "More often than you can possibly imagine. It is more common than you would expect, even in your most intense nightmares." "That's why I'm on a God-ordained mission to fix the problem!" "Yes, of course Rachel." And then... But lock up the knives. Threat? No... If your parents lock up the knives the second you are diagnosed, it leads to internalization of the idea that you are considered a serious threat to society. And they told your mom to. And she didn't. "Wow what a great mother!" "Do you think so?" "No, I just think some people are stupider."

Jason: What Happened Next?

Jason is still in the midst of the "hose off" process. At first, he comes in and I shoo him away for some reason. He comes back, he has agreed to do a bunch of painful exercises on the Other Side, including something boring including staring at a spot on the floor while trying not to think for an extended period of time, to recreate boredom like at Innercept. The other one is staring through a mist as hard as he can at a "duck." Because of the "How Does a Duck Know?" Crash Test Dummies song and the fact that he was plotting and "stuff" during my experience at Unity Hospital listening to that song. This will keep any horrific long-term repercussions from happening to him, due to the fact he went further than planned by God, in harassing Rachel in ways that were sad to both of them. How is his mood? He feels like puking. He comes in, jokes around with Rachel while she's in the shower. He lost most of his friends due to this experience, and this situation has attracted "new friends." Jason is making new friends, and accepting fate, as Rachel smiles and winks.

"Rachel Didn't Tell Jason She Was Spiritually Possessed"

I had a mental block and didn't want to think about it. So he never knew the truth.

We Point Fingers At

No therapy at Providence whatsoever. Look, I tried lady. That is what I want to talk about now. The fucking Eminem song.