Thinking With the Mind of God

So I recently had another "whatever the fuck that was" experience. It was actually quite pleasant, when I wasn't getting grief from my parents.

So what I have learned is just to take the beliefs as they come. My beliefs about what is going on are changing. All that matters is that I don't lose faith in myself. Everything will be okay as long as I never stop believing in myself. I just have to be open to the fact that I have a lot of beliefs that are most likely not true. When one gets disproven, accept it and don't let that make myself stop believing in myself.

At this point I don't want to get into the details of what happened. But, basically, I imagined a bunch of shit, then I started arguing with my parents.

More and more frequently, I start thinking with the mind of God. At least, this is how I interpret it. The energy kind of goes up and out of my head and I start laughing about something on Earth that doesn't logically make sense.

Back a couple months ago, when I was thinking with the mind of God, I was thinking about how people missed the point with Jesus, they were just in awe of how great he was.

The point was there is really nothing wrong with comparing yourself to Jesus, what's wrong is hatred.

So I started hearing all these thoughts in my head, people saying mean things and people saying nice things. I felt the vibration of each thought. Mean comments had this nasty unharmonious noisy ring. Nice things had nice energy.

So one of the things was, Jesus was a great guy, but even He wouldn't go to hell. And by hell I mean a hell that is eternal. Jesus is willing to suffer but He wouldn't even go to hell.

But a lot of humans do go to hell. So in a way, those humans were a lot better than Jesus was!

No sentient being would willingly knowingly experience that kind of agony.

So in my room, I was whispering to myself over and over and laughing, "those people were a lot better than Jesus was!"

The major theme of this particular episode was people thinking for themselves. At the hospital, I picked up a Rush Limbaugh book, because I realized I don't know anything about him. I started reading, and I wrote down a quote from him because I thought it was so true. It was something like, "I'm convinced that most people don't really think, though they believe they do."

I had a lot of arguments, and I kept running into the fact that we were talking but not really communicating. So I started really making sure we communicated, but people got mad. They got mad at me for asking them what they meant by things. Why they thought things.

I was writing a lot of facebook statuses when I was arguing, trying to illustrate that the way they were thinking was incorrect.

But the thing I was thinking was, only intelligent people appreciate really intelligent things. So I was thinking that some of the stuff I imagined when I was delusional, it only makes sense to intelligent people.

And other people aren't going to understand stuff that comes from the mind of God.

I imagined that a lot of my facebook statuses were this way. They were only funny to people who are intelligent, and stupid to people who are unintelligent.

God created humans with the capability of thinking for themselves. However, most of them don't. Humans were actually, in a way, made way to stupid and not intelligent enough to understand God. But God didn't fully understand humans when he first made them, and when writing the bible.

One of things I was thinking was that God didn't hate Esau. He just meant he didn't like him as much as Jacob.

Punishment

So, I wanted to write about something I was writing about at the hospital. The concept of punishment, and how it relates to hell.

What is the purpose of punishment? Some people do not understand the purpose of punishment. The true purpose of punishment is to CORRECT BEHAVIOR. So, your kid gets in a fight with his brother, or something. You punish him. Is it because he DESERVES TO SUFFER? No. You are trying to teach your child.

That is the whole purpose of negative feelings that happen on purpose. The purpose is to teach.

So is hell a punishment? Well, hell is eternal and there is no coming back from hell, so there is no way for people to learn from their bad behavior and make it better. So it is not a punishment.

Why do we send people to prison? There are two reasons we send people to prison. One is to correct behavior. The other is because they are a menace to society and they need to be removed. It is not to make them suffer. It is to remove them from society.

The only time people deserve pain is if it's going to help them learn.

So anyway, what I am trying to say is, souls that are sent to hell on purpose, they are like prisoners who  need to be removed from society. These souls are a menace to other souls so they need to be cast out. Because these souls are dangerous and threaten the well-being of other souls.

And that's how things are.

My Christian Enlightenment

So I had an enlightenment a month or so ago.

One thing you should know about my enlightenment is that I just tagged on some shit to it about all religions being correct to sound more politically correct.

So I used to think that Christians were kind of stupid. Now I actually think that Christians are way smarter than atheists. Actually it's not a matter of one being smarter than the other.

I didn't understand the idea of getting saved. The thing is, it's not really supposed to make sense to us because we're not God. That's the thing about Christianity, or this brand of Christianity I subscribe to. Part of it is accepting that you don't know fucking everything.

Which is something that atheists refuse to do. They think that they are capable of comprehending the universe. They can't accept that the universe follows a logic that they are incapable of comprehending.

Except that when I reached enlightenment, I did comprehend it. And I remembered how, the only way to get around the hell problem, is to have people accept Jesus.

You realize that God IS NOT all powerful. I don't believe in an all powerful God. My dad told me that I wasn't allowed to believe this. That if I believed in God, He had to be all powerful.

But I don't believe in an all-powerful God. My God can't do something like, say, create a rock so big He Himself cannot lift it. My God can't do that! Well, that doesn't logically make any sense! Yeah, because my God cannot do everything. He can't do things that don't logically make any sense. And saving someone who has not accepted Jesus, or bringing someone back from hell, are things that don't logically make sense to God. Because God follows a higher logic.

People think the idea of hell is funny. You realize, once you have properly had the shit scared out of you, that hell is the scariest concept there is. There is nothing fucking scarier than hell. It's this state of horrible horrible agony that goes on for eternity and never gets any better.

Non-Christians get annoyed by Christians trying to convert them. One thing I have learned is, Christians really aren't trying to be mean when they try to convert you. They aren't trying to be intolerant of your belief system. They seriously just want to save you from the fucking most horrible scariest shit ever.

You realize that God hasn't talked for 2000 years. That's not very long for God. The way humans think is different from the way God thinks. You also realize that there is no way in fucking hell the bible is inerrant. You know why? Because language is so fucking shaky and unreliable. Like, today, people don't even agree amongst themselves what words mean. Think about being translated between languages, and several times into modern-day English. They keep translating the bible because the English language keeps changing. There is no fucking way the bible means exactly the same thing now as it did back when it was written.

So these are my ramblings for today.

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Jesus and the Crazy Decision Strings

Yeah, Jesus was perfect, he doesn't have FREE WILL.

The way free will works, it is like a gigantic game of tug-of-war. One decision you make, changes someone else's decision. All our decisions are interconnected by strings.

God doesn't know all decisions that are going to be made beforehand. It's just that one Jesus comes, all the strings come together. Jesus is the place where all the strings come together. That's why Jesus knows things about what people are going to do.

When Jesus came, it was a mistake, because people were so in awe of how great he was, they missed his message.

Weird Dream

So I had this dream last night. I was in this group of something, like girl scouts only I think it was different people. I was chosen to be the official hot girl. I had to wear a special dress, and when we went places it was my duty to smile and wave at everyone.

Then, this person was telling me that it's a problem how I always change the subject when issues were brought up. As they said this, I was looking at something on the ground. It was this little human-shaped thing, and as I watched it divided like a cell into two human-shaped things. "What's that?" I said, changing the subject.

It turned out to be this deadly thing that would keep dividing and dividing and multiplying and the population would keep growing and growing. As it did this, it would kill everyone. At first we thought it was harmless, and funny, and I was the one who let it outside, with my appointed husband. We were on a TV show, and since I was the hot girl that meant I was also the dumb girl. If I hadn't done that, it wouldn't have killed everyone. So it kept dividing and multiplying and at one point my character had to die. But then I was suddenly this different girl, either that or my character came back to life, and it was just me and this guy in this closet. Outside, it was all little human things. Me and this guy in the closet were the only people left. So we set off some sort of blast outside, wiping out the little multiplying human things. The end.

Good dreams.

Schrodinger's Cat and the Law of Attraction

So I figured out the universe. One of the things about the universe is that reality isn't fixed, and reality is not the same for everyone. Truth is not the same for everyone.

So in my world, you need to accept Jesus as your savior to avoid hell. And in my world, this is a fundamental fact of the universe that everyone needs to do this. At the same time, if your reality is different then mine, and you don't do this, you won't go to hell. Because that's not true for you.

Except, that in my world, everyone needs to do this. But this is just my world. Not your world.

In my world, my copy of you will be in hell after you die if you don't. But that's just my copy of you and that's not really you.

We all exist in our own realities, and our realities interact with each other. So if you know me, my reality touches your reality. But the laws your reality are defined by aren't the same as the laws my reality are defined by.

So, the reason the law of attraction works. I only experience my own consciousness and life, not yours. When I don't know what's going on in other peoples' lives, that opens up infinite possibilities of what it could be. It's like Schrodinger's cat, when you don't know, you haven't manifested a reality yet so the possibilities are open. So in my world, and infinite amount of things could be happening in your life. So when you decide one day, to tell me about something in your life, or something in your life somehow collides with my life, a reality is manifested. So before the reality is manifested, you could be doing any number of things in your life, and in my reality, all those possibilites are true simultaneously. But then, the day I find your needles for shooting up, the reality is then manifested that all this time you were shooting up on heroine. So that becomes true in my reality.

So if you focus on a particular outcome, that will make that particular outcome more likely to manifest.